Sunday, 4 August 2013

Cymru

On our way to Wales for a much-needed holiday, just crossed the M5 toll and the Severn Bridge, which poses a simple question - how do you get tollbooth workers into the booths? Are they forced to play chicken at the start of each shift or something? Does this problem require a complex, helicopter-based solution which, in turn, keeps the toll price up?


 Saturday 29th Sept - 12pm - Llandovery

 Almost at our cottage for the week - stopped in Llandovery, a lovely wee village at the bottom of a picturesque valley, and interrupted a Sheep Festival, somewhat inevitably. Two drovers' pasties and an armful of organic veg duly purchased from local greengrocer who seemed simultaneously impressed and slightly put out to learn that we'd come from London :)

The sun, apparently an infrequent visitor to these parts, currently warms our backs, and we're being 'treated' to a performance by the Towy Youth Theatre group in the town square. All very nice. There are mumblings of a barbecue tonight and we've already seem the traditional Holiday Weim. All is well - onward to Edwinsford!

Sunday 30th Sept – 2pm, Edwinsford

This house is so nice. Great first night here – so much space! It’s an 18th century diary cottage with two doubles and a single bedroom, double-height ceilings downstairs, a massive utility, a ‘snug’ with TV, videos and Sky, and the crowning glory – a huge, 40-foot square living space, where  I’m sat writing this over a local map. There’s a dining table, sofas and so many books... happy as Larry, whoever he was.

Before the sun set yesterday, we had a little BBW on the gravelly riverbank - idyllic's the word. Started a game of chess last night, which is, as they say, 'delicately poised' this morning. It's rained like something out of the latter stages of the Bible all night, and as we prepare to head over to Abergolech this afternoon, it could do well to think about holding off a bit. going to have a little look at the loca area - most of which I wouldn't be surprised to find shut, given it's a Sunday. It would be good to get some exercise in before the inevitable Downton/red wine-powered dinner :)

4.53pm A mixed afternoon. Lots of tooling around loking for a bit of lunch in Llandeillo, which was, as predicted, something of a ghost town on a Sunday afternoon. Lovely looking, just not benefitting from the arrival of some resolutely Welshweather - which is still with us some five hours after it arrived. got back with supplies and Tam took the opportunity to 'suit up' and take a dip in our little river.


Tuesday 1st October: The Wettest Day Ever
 so, we decided to have a go at this mountain-biking lark, as we'd made quite a noise about doing so before leaving London. Things started promisingly - the way they always do in disaster movies, in my experience. We picked up two Specialized mountain bikes for £40 for a half-day from a very nice man in Hikes & Bikes in Brecon, where a light drizzle merely aided our prgress to the nearby canal towpath. The rain gradually woresened in the first half-hour of the ride, and the path's clay surface was rutted with a constant supply of foot-deep puddles, so that an hour into our journey we were both soaked to the skin. Pluckily, I thought, we soldiered on, and soon entered the depths of Brechfa forest.

Talk about atmospheric - brilliant viwes, amazing photography opportunities and clear paths soon put the rain, which slackened slightly at this point, to the back of our minds. As the pictures show, it was like something out of Lord of the Rings, but we soon realised that the planned 12-mile round-trip would be too much for us when we passed Talleybont Reservoir, and realised we still had about eight miles to go! So, we found a short-cut which, the map warned us, would be 'severely challenging' - and how right it was. a gradient of about 1:6, rocky riverbed where the path once lay, and a fast-flowing stream around our feet. 'Fuck this', I thought, but on we staggered regardless.

Clambering to the top of the hill in the hammering rain, we began the decent back in to Brecon, and what a trip it was - a good 20 minutes of no-nonsense downhill racing, through a couple of tiny villages, at around 30mph or so. and back to the rutted railway track we'd left two hours previously. And there, well.. I basically ran out of gas. The legs don't work, as Richard Ashcroft memorably crooned. Jesus, I was tired by then. On and on the recently rechristened Fucking Towpath of Death went. I wouldn't do it again.

Eventually, looking like two survivors of an idiots-only shipwreck, we got into Brecon, wherein I thought it appropriate to by brandy and fish and chips, in that order. 'Nice weather out - you two look a bit wet', said the comedian masquerading as an off-license owner. Too right, matey.

Once home and dry, though, it was all Under Milk Wood starring Richard Burton and Liz Taylor (weird, don't bother), brandy and log fires. All in all, a top, top day.


Wednesday 2nd October: Beaches and Rainbows A long drive out to Tenby in the morning was rewarded with a quaint little seaside town that T had visited when she was a nipper. I really liked the place - reminded me of Milford, for some obscure reason.. Great weather too - and a welcome respite after yesterday's meterological unpleasantness. Brightly-coloured Georgian terraces line the promenade there; less brilliantly, a new development of spacious executive lifestyle hutches sits glowering contemptuously at the sea, to the obvious disgust of the (mostly ancient) locals.Apparently, I could, if my papers were stacked that way, pick up a three-bed semi-detatched for under £200k, too. Not that I would.

More photography using Panorama Mode on the near-deserted beach led to some truly decent shots - really great stuff I'd like on the wall at home one day. We even started thinknig about how we might change things around and end up living by the coast one day - a sure sign that all's well in the state of Denmark. As we were doing so, a huge rainbow stretched across the entire width of the bay in front of us and stayed there for about ten minutes.

Came home via aless awe-inspiring stop at Carmarthern's noble branch of Lidl, where three bottles of Spitfire are £3.99. Don't all get killed in the rush. Dinner, Goodfellas, the eventual arrival of Chlo and Ian, bed.

Friday, 2 August 2013

What I Know, As Of Today

1. The Better Half is going to overtake me soon

2. Bid writing is a waste of time

3. My new role will be more interesting and varied

4. My new boss is better than my old boss

5. I will get to live in the South West in a nice house without fear of penury and with lots of interesting benefits, both financial and lifestyle-based. I will also inherit a true 'bonus' because of getting a house before needing to spend it all on a house.

6. I veer from relaxed and amenable to furiously outraged on a daily basis, with protracted stops along the way at despondent, cynical, nervous, incensed and  unhappy I am also lonely, and especially feel overlooked by what remains of my family and now my bosses.

7. I have worked hard for five years and, besides being able to move house and receive a wage which allows me to live reasonably comfortably, I have not progressed one inch. My job, and the way it is done, is the same now as it was on November 4, 2008. There are more forms, yes, but nothing else is better or more interesting. I still don't know what I am for, in a work context.

8. This is not the path. The path is always 'over there.' Wherever 'there' may be, it is always just a few yards further on, or just over that rise, or just on the other side of this lake. It is never, ever, 'here.'

9. Self-worth and validation have not been generated by anything I've /done/ for the last three years. Self-worth has been generated by knowing that those around me value my contribution, that my contribution is highly beneficial and takes a level of skill to achieve. A move to a more overtly creative, more self-supporting role is therefore essential for wellbeing.

10. I am getting less interested in office politics and more prone to creative impulses/thought patterns as I get older. I assumed that this would be the other way around. As I narrow down on forty, though, all I can think of that might make me really happy is to make things. Print things. Sell things I've made, and brought into being from inside my head to inside someone's house. Screenprinting and graphic design are beautiful, peaceful things that make me happy. They will not, however, pay for a new hat. Therefore...

11. I will /have/ to monetise one of my numerous but undeveloped hobbies, purely for my own sanity

12. I want to become really fucking good at something, so I'm going to go on lots of courses, set up a web presence, develop a brand, and launch my own company. As a sole trader, if it works, I will be better off financially than either of us is at the moment. Then I will feel less emasculated and more purposeful. 

13. I need to book another course, and over a number of weeks, really learn a new skill. I have to drive, but that can wait. A new skill - web design, printing, Photoshop, marketing, app design, surfing etc would be amazing things. This must be done, and London is the best place in the UK to do it.

I feel better.