Project Peppercorn

 to replace this one, which has outlived its usefulness. 

Today got me five times. Life is hard. There aren't they many bird I look forward to. Food. Star Trek. A morning espresso. No pain. I mi...

It came back. We are waiting to see how serious it is, how operable. How final. It'll go one of several ways. 1. Operable, best-case: pe...

 I have one bollock, and more treatment in the offing. Seminoma, a rare and eminently beatable spinoff from testicular cancer, needs getting...

Pecking Order I wanted to win I waited and worked I won More people came in Now they also win They'll be full time,  Have closer ties Be...

 Don't tell me how I know. I just do.  It's coming back. It had a go at my head. Now it's going to find a way in. Through my fuc...

You've done incredibly well, my little man.  You're smart, funny, fast, talkative, and you've even started to make friends. I lo...

The rain’s falling outside, flanked by the darkness, a static hiss like and old TV, but warmer than that. In here, muffled by the double-gla...

 Me and weed have had a tricky old time of it,  all things considered. But nowadays we generally get along. I suppose that new entente is pr...

You're four, mate. What a long journey we've been on thus far, eh? Feels like it, anyway. As I type this, you and Mum are playing wi...

My friend Sam has just been voted the ninth best photographer in London. I'm still not sure of what to do with my life. I have never kno...

I love life again. I'm forty three. I'm well enough to be a cool, valued and loved member of this family. I'm good enough at my ...

I'm well. Enjoyed the New Year's Eve drone show and some truly excellent wine. Cancer is an ongoing, daily and minor aspect of life....

 I got bored of being sad and waiting to die of this thing, so instead of thinking about how much of a failure I was and how much of a disap...

[I found this on an old computer today]  Brain tumours are so dumb. He sits there, burrowed into my mind, plotting my downfall. Months go by...

 All I seem to be good for is getting into pointless fucking arguments, pissing people off, and surfing the fucking internet. Discuss.  Oh, ...

 What I actually want to do is go on a big holiday, away from everyone I know - everyone I've ever known - and never come back. My wife ...

 and I'm still here to be impressed.  You're potty trained, and I'm potty-mouthed. I have to get a handle on that, and am learni...

Being good at something meaningful is more useful then being rich. Listening to the Beatles, Radiohead, The Velvet Underground, Max Richter,...

was supposed to be the last great thing I was involved in, but I feel like such a failure. I'm not very good at this. You don't like...

 My siezures are getting worse. Weaker and weaker in the left leg, left hand, and not really covered off by the meds.  https://www.youtube.c...

 I've not got much to say at the moment, and this blog is something I really wish I could

...Aaaaand, we're back. Been busy doing some properly intense child-rearing so no new posts for a couple of months, but what's happe...

Really not feeling good today, or yesterday. Cancer, it won't surprise you to hear, can be a nails-hard bitch. Today I have been apocaly...

  "There is a tide in the affairs of men, Which taken at the flood, leads on to fortune. Omitted, all the voyage of their life is bound...

I fell out, out, out of the plain Falling, I burn crops off the end of the world In the long grass, clocks tick, wires hum A dry-stone edif...

Hey - thanks for coming back. That's the sort of bravery that gets rewarded around here.  The good news today is that in yesterday...

Since mid-March, we've been in lockdown, which has basically meant that most shops, offices and pubs have been shut. It's been a dif...

I love the Veils, especially their first few albums. This is an Edgar Allen Poe-inspired lyric I like so much I made a screenprint of it onc...

For the last few months, we've been living through what can only be described as a once-in-a-century, global pandemic. You've probab...

Today's only getting warmer Too hot, too close for dog's paw or man's feet The pavements compete with the concrete heatsink T...

It will be quiet and full of dappled light in the large, wooden shack. My clothes and everything I need will be on a table in front of me, ...